This situation with Ben being homeless and hateful is taking its toll on me.  I try to hide my feelings and lack of coping,but my husband told me this morning that he can see it is affecting me…short fuse, no patience, etc.  I am praying…..I trust that God knows what he s doing….but then I think of Howe Ben is living and it makes me so sad I can barely do the next task at hand.  I am concerned with my grand-daughter too……..but god is bigger than these circumstances.  I do trust him.