at this time is evening I am coming to grips with the fact that Sydney is not allowed to go to Vegas with us.  I never thought it his thing would still be Going on.  I don’t have any idea where she even is.  Last night I called Pamela and she reminded me how great God is and not to give up.  Keep on praying and trusting God.  This has been hard on Randy too.  tomorrow is Bens birthday.  I am going to text him a short note with fear and trembling.  Thank you God that you are faithful even when I am not.