Feeling weird tonight.  Went and took Ben to get us tools today.  He doesn’t bathe and looks and smells like a street person.  I couldn’t have a normal conversation with him today because I know he doesnt care so there was no point.  I guess I am feeling depressed.  I haven’t prayed in a few days ,,,,,I sometimes wonder why there is no change.  I know my part is to pray but it just feels so hopeless.  Please god help me to trust you no  matter what.