I write this with hesitation…..I have been taking I would like to renew my vows with Randy with the kids when we go on the family cruise. it makes me sad that Ben would not be there too. My dream is that we all get to go and have a great time all together as a big family.

Ininvited him to our Thanksgiving dinner……he said no. Sydney wants to come so I am thankful for that.

I miss mother more at this time of the year…..I need to keep focused on the celebration and what to is all about.

We are still tryng to find a church to attend…..please god help is to find the right one.