Our house has sold, we have signed papers and the Lord has provided a house for us that we are excited to move into Wednesday. So tonight as I sit up in our tv room it is the last weekend in this house. I don’t really feel any attachment to this house….but it is just odd to realize that after Tuesday we will never be in this house again. The.

change is needed. I have been having an especially hard time not having any contact with Sydney. It feels like losing my child….she spent so ,icy time with us and now I don’t even get any texts or calls. Lisa has cut us off. I don’t know why. It isn’t a good idea to dwell on it. Every time I think about her I pray…..now Thanksgiving is coming and the. CHristmas….I love those days but just miss her so much and can’t help but wonder how she is doing…what she is doing. Ben hates me and won’t talk to me either, and then there is Della. She has hung up on me with no explanation. Prayer is my option and leave all of them with the a Lord. Focusing on what a God is doing in our life is what I need to focus on.


After looking forward to seeing Sydney and trying to keep in contact with her she is back and hasn’t even made any effort to call me. I feel like she doesn’t care about us at all. I feel like it doesn’t matter to her whether shape ses us or not.

Today a huge answer to prayer. I have been praying for my kids…..the Lord took Katie into a job where there are Christians working and they invit d her to church,,,,she went and then invited Jess and he went.  Katie has given her life to Christ and was baptized today. THank you Lord for bringing her to Yourself.The Lord is in control and He has encouraged me beyond words!

well, one more day and then it is time to say good bye and send Sydney back home. Our visit was great and we had a lot of good times.we went to the beach twice with Sarah and brenden and aiden and to Silverwood. Then we took Sydney to River Bend for three days and she played in the river floating on the rapids. I got chances to talk to her about Jesus but she does not want to make a decision to follow Him. I can’t force it, just pray. She did not see her dad while she was here either. He does not know she was here. It is heart breaking . I don’t really know what Sydney is thinking regarding her daddy. I have to step aside and trust the Lord. I can’t fix this mess. Please Lord remind me to trust You.


we have had my grand daughter visiting for the last two weeks.  We have enjoyed playing countless games and just spending time with her.  Tomorrow is the last day til summer….she flies out at 6am Saturday for home.  I have talked to her about Jesus but she doesn’t seem receptive.  I gave her a Bible….and will continue to pray.  We love her so much!  The time is going so fast..she is 11and a half.   We wish she lived closer….but that doesn’t seem to be the Lords plan.

Tonight as we sit here watching the numbers we are appalled that Trump could possibly win.  It makes me incredibly sad and what else can I say?

Ok We haven’t put up a Christmas tree.  This is the first Christmas ever with no tree.  We are profoundly sad that Sydney is not here.  /he has always been here to decorate the tree.  Ben is in prison and I have to say I am totally sad.  I try to cover it up but when I am home alone I don’t have to fake it.  I love going to church but it is just so hard to hear the songs,I can hardly hold it together.  Then tomorrow afternoon Sue invited me to go to the church choir program and I said I would go but I am dreading it.  Surely I can get through this.  I want to enjoy it but it’s so hard.  Then spending Christmas Eve is something I would just as soon skip.  Please Lord help me to get through tomorrow…then Christmas Eve.  randy has to work Christmas Day so I don’t have to deal with it.  Ben is not moving towards the Lord…I continue to pray for him to decide to give his life to Him.